undecisive.depressed

haih.. esok ifa ajak balik umah dia kat batu pahat sbb kakak dia nk kawen. kalo sy ikut, bley jd bunga telur girl. n bley balik ayer baloi kejap. dekat je.. sgt rindu kampung, opah..n arwah atuk. atuk meninggal masa sy tgktn 1, masa tu sy ingt lg, sy called umah tp xde org jwb. then, sy call mak tam, n mak tam ckp my famili sume dah balik pontian. sy terasa sgt sedih, cm xde sape ingt sy utk dibawa blk jumpa arwah utk kali terakhir.. so, sy mmg x sempat jumpa arwah b4 dikebumikan, in fact, my parents pon x sempat sbnrnye. penang-johor sgt jauh. tp Alhamdulillah, sy ada jumpa arwah a few days b4 dia mninggal, tp masa tu dia tgh koma. sgt sedih.. semoga roh atuk Sulaiman dicucuri rahmatNya...


ni la umah opah kat ayer baloi, pontian, johor.. rindunye..


opahku, Fatimah bt. Ibrahim.. sayang opah!!

nway, back to my problem. all my IMU frens ada hal yg xbley dielakkan, so drg x dpt nk ikut g bt pht. takkan sy nk g sorg2 je, xde teman selain tuan rumah.. huhu~ cmne nih? patut x sy pegi? help me to make a decision...

hm.. ni dialog YM sy dgn kuchai tadi, 1 of my closest cousins. i guess he understands me bcos he's also doing medic, currently in Melbourne Uni. gile la.. sy jugek yg x fly2..ahaqs! *my dialog dah di edit, tp yg kuchai punya original*

frhyh : hmm.. i feel a bit depressed lately
kuchai: hahah bukan kita sumer ade gak camtuh ke, skali sekala
kuchai: cam biasa.....fed up ngan diri yang berlengah2
kuchai: study tak, rilek pon tak
kuchai: mengeluh2 sepanjang minggu
frhyh : tu la.. kekadang bile jmpe patient tatau nk tnya ape
kuchai: but but..i think u're best just following ur flow ^^
kuchai: so far, dah sampai 3rd year, dah sampai stage nih dah pon
kuchai: u know what u're doing lah~
kuchai: just relax and u'll get back ur confident ^^
kuchai: dont worry too much
kuchai: syaitan jer tuh...playing around with ur heads...makes u unable to think, worried too much bout unproductive things and stuff
frhyh : btul tu.. i think i need a break, see my frens, out of srmbn for a while
kuchai: tapi cam i guess, get close to fwen, cam borak2, kinda helps?
kuchai: well, try out things, play sports...put ur mind away sat ke, jumpe kawan
kuchai: things like that?
kuchai: saja makan sedap sket ke, ape ke
kuchai: cam just a day of sober and treating urself
kuchai: then, u know that u gotta be back into business la kot
kuchai: kekeke
kuchai: dun worry ^^ u'll do well which ever turns u take

so, kesimpulannya, jgn depressed sgt.. if u need a break, just do it now! kalo rasa was2, depressed.. tu sume tipu daya syaitan. be optimist. ni nasihat utk diri sendiri jugak.. doa mintak dijauhi dr syaitan yg direjam.. Amiin..