drama queen

life is a work of art

u gotta paint it colourful

u can make it anything u want

dun have to stick to any rule

u dun need a high IQ

to succeed in what u do

u just got to have no doubt

just believe in urself!

hm.. i was listening to my songs collection 2 days ago.. i am more into soundtracks la actually. so, while reading n layan music, ada la this song, OST from Confession of A Teenage Drama Queen, the title of the song is "Drama Queen". i like this 1 part, not chorus/bridge or wutsoeva, rap pon tidak, but it's part of the song la. nice!! up there, that's the lyric!

C207 dear,

just believe in urself!!

study hard, study smart,

but never forget to pray to God!

jia yuk!!

forsythia: huhu~ tired of reading ortho bookS!! but i have no other choice.

the psycho

A friend is what the heart needs all the time - Anonymous

hey friends! thanx for always being there for me. u guys are great!! i'm really enjoying my sem7 with all of u.. 7 weeks more to EOS!! takutnyeh!! aja aja fighting!!

Azi + Frh

Sabrina

Hwee Long, Khay Wei + partner, Keren + partner, Xiu Jin, Frh, Azi, 1 Chair, Jonathan

Hwee Long, Khay Wei+partner, Keren+partner, King Yee, Xiu Jin, Frh, Azi, 1Chair

Keren, Khay Wei, King Yee, Azi, Frh

Wan Chieh

Shan Min

Jonathan

Wayne

pictures from:
- Kg. Angkat Pt. Kadir & Kg. Tekir pics

- post-psychiatry-exam Syndrome (bowlings)

- evening-after-seminar Syndrome (the not-so-Supermans)

Not in the pics at all: Sheau Yng & Jen Ven

Two persons cannot long be friends if they can't forgive each others little failing...

naluri

Aku wanita aku kaum hawa
Yang memang rapuh hatinya
Aku wanita aku punya cinta
Selayaknya manusia

-"wanita" by Siti Nurhaliza

hoho.. yahoo group fighters jarang mendapat sambutan, cuma meriah bila ada berita2 sprti ada org nak kawen, n bila nk wat gath. n now, tgh meriah bila cinot nak kawen on this coming 2 August.. too bad, I dun think I can make it, with the exam is coming very soon.

yeah, I'm freaking out when I heard Sue Ling talked about our exam during Kg. Tekir's visit. (yup, I went for another Kg angkat project last week) huhu~ only approximately 7 weeks left to EOS! and I dun think I am ready for it. gosh! when Dr. SR asked what is the pathogen that cause panau, I was like.. yea, I knew it. we learnt during our family medicine.. tapi ape ek? serius x ingat.. then I was like, this is too bad Frh.. 7 weeks left!!!! so, friends, what causes panau? hehehe...

ok, back to cerita kawen.. hmm.. dah lama teringin nak wat entry psl kawen since cinot nak kawen, lagi2 bila cik azi tersayang buat entry khas utk sy.. tapi dah lama sgt tergendala, now cm da xde semangat nak respond. tapi kesimpulannya la, kawen ni satu perkara yg sgt berat, cerita antara 2 org, antara 2 families.. masa bercinta mmg best, tapi kita x tau lagi ape akan jadi after da kawen. memang, kita perlu persediaan yg sgt byk sblm berumah tangga- baik dari mental dan fizikal, jiwa dan jasmani, dan tak lupa jugak, rohani... dan itu la yg byk dari kalangan kita belum bersedia.. maka dgn ini, byk lagi pembacaan yg perlu dilakukan, dan byk lagi nasihat2 yg diperlukan dr org2 yg berpengalaman (macam zaza, ahaqs!!).. bagaimana dgn sy? dah bersedia? hehe.. jawab dlm hati je la.. (ahaha.. azi sure bengang je)

nway, to cinot: selamat pengantin baru! semoga korg berdua sentiasa di bawah lindingan Allah.. fighters darling, who's next in line??? anyone starts with D plak ke? F dekat tapi jauh lagi.. (^_^)V

okla.. i better get back to studies.. 7 weeks more!!! cuak!!!

*jawapan kpd soalan panau: fungal group of Pityriasis - organism is Malassezia furfur.

dedicated utk seseorang...

"aku menyintaimu kerana agama yg ada padamu,

jika kau hilangkan agama dalam dirimu,

hilanglah cintaku padamu..."

- Imam Nawawi

Milo suruh buat gak

sometimes, struggles are exactly what we wanted in our life

kepada milo, sy telah kotakan janji sy!


7 Fakta Tentang Saya :
1. saya anak sulung dari 4 adik beradik. sy dan 2 adik laki bwh sy sgt rapat, beza umur kami selang 2 tahun. sy membesar dgn mereka, jadi sy agak kasar sket la. dpt adik pompuan masa umr sy 12 thn. jauh kan beza umur kami?
2. insyaAllah... sy akan jadi Doktor pertama dlm famili. doakan kejayaan sy. ada lagi 3 semester lagi. usaha3! (adik dan sepupu sy pun tgh buat bidang perubatan jugak, habis lambat sket je dari sy)
3. sy dalam bab makan ni pelik sikit. sy suka mkn tembikai, x suka tembikai susu. tp tembikai pun yg warna merah je sy mkn, kuning x suka. sy x mkn yogurt, tp sy minum yogurt drink. sy suka mkn mi goreng dan bihun sup, x suka bihun goreng dan mi kuah sgt (kecuali mi kuah mak sy masak)
4. sy suka masak tapi adik2 sy slalu membantutkan semangat sy nk masak.. cmne akak nak maju ni? adui.. pastu duis ada hati lak ckp, pompuan kalo x reti masak x bley kawen.. huaa.. dush2!
5. sy suka shoping! window shoping!
6. sy suka main - bola tampar, boling, bola jaring dll.. ajak la sy main ape pon, sy boleh main, asalkan jgn ajak sy joging!!!
7. sy sepatutnya tgh buat report psychiatry ni, tapi ter-lagho plak.. adei!!


7 Perkara Yang Menakutkan Saya ( kat dunia) :
1. kegagalan! baik dalam exam atau pun apa jua benda sy buat. nak sempurna je. yg stress- sy jugek..
2. acrophobia- ketiggian. naik keta kabel dan 'eye on msia' pon x nikmat, ahaqs!
3. accident
4. kehilangan org tersayang..
5. terlambat utk janji temu / mesyuarat ape2 la
6. jatuh sakit
7. bila teringat pasal kematian, hari akhirat... astaghfirullah...


7 Lagu Buat Masa Sekarang :
1. Wanita - siti nurhaliza
2. Arti sahabat - Nidji
3. Sempurna - Andra & the backbone
4. Sampai Syurga - Faizal Tahir
5. Aku lebih tahu - Mila
6. Menjaga Hati - yovie & nuno
7. ku merindu - ella & shah


7 Perkara Yang Selalu Saya Sebut :
1. bismillah -
2. salam
3. ek? - ala2 hans isaac slalu buat tuh.
4. derh
5. ek eleh
6. chaiyuk
7. entah/ i dunno

7 Perkara Yang Amat Bernilai:
1. famili - x dapat ditukar ganti
2. kawan2 - terima kasih kerana menjadi kawan yg sgt baik :)
3. kamera
4. kad pengenalan.. xnak jadi PATI.. ahaqs!
5. kunci kereta
6. telefon bimbit
7. memori.. kesian kan org2 yg ilang ingatan ni. drg kehilangan sesuatu yg sgt berharga


7 "Pertama Kali" dalam Hidup Saya:

1. pakai bandage tgn - masa darjah berapa x ingat, tapi tgn kiri terkehel masa tgh baca 'gila-gila' atas buaian kat umah opah.. tah hape2 la masa tuh. pastu sebelum balik Penang, ktrg pegi Cameron, jadi semua gmbr kat Cameron muka sy masam je, ye r, ada gmbr tak cantik dgn tgn sy yg ber-bandage
2. hidung berdarah - darjah 6. sebabnya kena bola 'sofbol'.. masa tu tgh berlatih, rasanya macam raja umi kot yg baling bola, dia x perasan yg sy belum ready tp dia dah terbaling. ape lagi, kemek la idung yg dah mmg kemek ni, ahaqs!
3. mewakili negeri Pulau Pinang - ahah.. ni zaman kanak2 ribena.. ktrg pegi KL utk Kem Waja Diri.. ingt lagi, ktrg tggal di youth centre, cheras. masa tu kecoh psl 'org minyak' kat situ. serius.. ada kesan2 minyak kat siling. x caye tnya nuraziatul aida or nadd haridan.. drg pon pegi jugak
4. pakai simen/ cast POP - masa tingkatan 2, 1999. jatuh masa main bola jaring. tgn kiri jugak yg kena. ganas kan? tu jugak kali pertama pegi Hospital Seremban. trimas kpd kawan2 sekelas dan dormmates yg byk tolong 'org cacat' ni masa tu. cm best je dilayan sume org.. best jugak sbb dpt mkn kat dining hall guna tgn selama sebulan. ye la, mana boleh mkn guna spoon je. paling sy ingat, niknaa tolong sy buat garisan guna pembaris masa klas math (dgn En. AB).. cuba bayangkan, mana boleh buat garisan guna pembaris dgn sebelah tgn je kan? cuba try tgk? ahaha..
5. naik Bukit Bendera, Pulau Pinang - tahun 2006, masa usia 21 tahun! ahaha.. nama je org Penang, tapi tu la kali pertama jejak kaki ke sana. tu pon sebab Yuni yg ajak, macam dia lak tourist guide sy
6. join usrah (selain kat coll dulu) - sem 5, tahun 2007. agak lambat la berbanding kwn2 rapat sy.. entahla.. sy pon tatau kenapa sy x nak ikut drg dari awal sedangkan azi slalu sgt ajak.. tapi Alhamdulillah.. terbukak jugak hati nk join
7. memandu kat jln besar - kat Seremban!! bulan 9 thn lepas (2008)!! umur: 22 tahun. ahaha.. dapat lesen dah 2 tahun tapi x penah pandu keluar dari taman perumahan. pastu tros bawak kat seremban yg semua pemandunya 'gila'. dahsyat x?


7 Orang Yang Bertuah (kena jawab tag ni) :
tak pe la.. sape rasa nk buat, buat je.. sbb sy pon malas kena tag, sy x nak la org lain pon kena buat gak, ngehehe..

what i did last weekend

we make a living by what we get,

we make a life by what we give

hm... malas nak cite panjang2.. let the pictures speak :) njoy!


venue 1: Ayer Baloi, Pontian
date : 13 June 2008
mission: eat, eat and eat (opah belanja)

otak-otak, rojak pecal, sate, ABC... kenyang gell...

tersandar kekenyangan

venue 2: Kg Parit Kadir, Senggarang
date : 14-15 June 2008
mission: projek komuniti dan anak angkat

persembahan silat dari adik2

the 3 stooges

makcik ni slim la.. BMI saya pon kalah tau.. ahaqs!

kembar sepusat sepusing mak bapak lain-lain

C207 who were there; from left: frh, (2 kiddies), tuck kit (dicekik), andre (mencekik), wan chieh (buat muka cute), iffah, azi

malam kebudayaan

kakak2 & abg2 tgh tunggu the kiddies to b ready for acara cari gula2 dlm tepung

hembus dik jgn x hembus

wan chieh tgh bergelek

iffah belikan pop candy yg meletup2 dlm mulut.. terus dpt ulcer, ahaqs!

najihah & akib.. aik-beradik.. gigi pon serupa :) (akib called me Kak Dr. Farah)

akmal (our adik angkat no1) dalam acara tiup belon smpai pecah

main tarik tali; IMU vs Org Kampung

part paling best: makan dalam talam, lauk ikan keli, ayam goreng, sayur masak lemak, urap, sambal belacan, ikan masin.. whalaa... menjilat jari

betapa sedapnya lunch sampai abg 2 org ni makan angkat talam

wif nabihah & ajim, adik2 angkat no3&4

well, all in all, it was a great experience for me and my dearest friends. it is not easy to get this sort of chance, once in a 6 months event- & only in clinical school. for me, i do believe that medicine is not merely by study the books. sometimes we must go out and practice the skills that we have learnt, hands on! it really tests ur patience and ur skills of communicating with people around you. you are not living alone in this world, we live together..

so friends, next time do grab the opportunity to get involve in Kampung Angkat Project, either in Batu Pahat or Kg Tekir, okies? if not for the community (as it is supposedly to be a community work), do think as it is for ur own good. like the famous saying goes:

to study medicine without books is to sail an unchartered sea, while to study medicine only from the books is not to go the sea at all- Sir William Osler

=(^_^)=

another chapter

hold a friend's hand through the times of trial,

let they find love through a hug and a smile,

but also know when to let go,

because each and everyone of us must learn to grow

venue: KLIA
date : 10 June 2008
time : 9 pm
destination: Scotland

dear shazwan,

good luck in ur future undertakings

study hard, study smart

may Allah bless u always

take care...

XOX; frhyh

howdy?

Hi. How r u doing. Its been a while since we last spoke. Keep in touch. -Usu

I got this sms while I was sleeping last nite. yeah.. been a while since we last spoke, February rite? V-day at haagen dasz.. huhu.. I miss u Usu.. I miss the cousins.. I jus miss everyone; Opah, uncle-muncle, and most importantly, my parents n siblings.

10/6/56 was my father's birthday. today he turned 52 years old. mmg dah lebih usia emas dah.. how time flies very fast..

to Ayah, happy birthday! moga sentiasa dirahmati Allah selalu.. amin...

to my fellow friends, if u happened to read this entry, just drop a word in the chatter box, just to let me know that somebody's been here.. do keep in touch ya! :)


*10/6/08: another chapter begins in someone's life.. wl post the pic nx time..


p/s: sorry as my last few entries were quite emotional.. not in the state of sanity duh.. too many things to cope at a time by my tiny brain. luckily it havent explode, yet ;p

OC trait

DSM- IV diagnostic criteria: pattern of preoccupation
with orderliness, perfectionism and mental and interpersonal control at the
expense of flexibility openness and efficiency, with at least 4 of the
following:


—Preoccupation with details, rules, lists, and organization such
that the main point of activity is lost
—Perfectionism that is detrimental
to completion of task
—Excessive devotion to work to the exclusion of
leisure activities and friendships
—Excessive conscientiousness and
scrupulousness about morals and ethics
—Will not delegate tasks with others
unless they submit to exactly his/her own way of doing things
—Unable to
discard worn-out or worthless objects even when they have no sentimental value
—Miserly spending style toward both self and others; money is viewed as
something to be hoarded for future catastrophies
—Shows rigidity and
stubborness

Arini kitorang blaja pasal personality disorders and psychotherapy.. menarik la.. byk sebenarnya jenis2 personality dlm dunia ni. Some of them are pathological, which can lead to some specific psychiatric disorder. Takut gak ek. Kita sometimes x sedar pon yg kita ada these traits. mungkin org2 sekeliling kita yg sedar tapi x ter-beritahu. ye la, for layman, they may think that this is his/her norm behaviour.

Hm.. cuba check diri anda, adakah anda tergolong dalam kumpulan Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder (OCPD)?

saya? hehe... mmg perasan ada some of the criteria tapi mungkin belum sampai tahap disorder kot (diri ini denial kah? ahaha).. or should I rephrase it, I do have the obsessive-compulsive traits, maybe mild la :)

my notes, must be very clean and in order

yup, I admit, my parents, maternal uncle, and my younger brother are quite perfectionists, and might have quite obvious OC trait.. and me, criterion no 5 up there nearly 'kill' me last few weeks. seriously. bukannya x nak bagi kerja kat org lain, jus that I might be upset if the ppl I give the task will not do it my way or the correct way (mmg pon, drg buat kerje menonong je, x guna cerebrum betul2).. huh.. in the end, I am the who suffered :(

wuteva la, the event dah abes pon.. farah, please get back to your student routine.. psychiatric posting clinical exam is on next week. yet, u're stil blur and delirious. camne nih? help!!



p/s: oh ya.. I also have acrophobia.. until now pon x dapek nak di tolong.. cmne nih.. hehe..

pieces of my heart

When U're Gone

I always needed time on my own,

I never thought I'd, need you there when I cried.

And the days feel like years when I'm alone,

And the bed where you lie,

Is made up on your side.

When you walk away

I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone,

The pieces of my heart are missing you!

When you're gone,

The face I came to know is missing too!

When you're gone,

All the words I need to hear to always get me through the day...

And make it OK...

I miss you.

I've never felt this way before,

Everything that I do,

Reminds me of you.

And the clothes you left,

They lie on the floor,

And they smell just like you,

I love the things that you do!

When you walk away

I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone,

The pieces of my heart are missing you!

When you're gone,

The face I came to know is missing too!

And when you're gone,

The words I need to hear to always get me through the day...

And make it OK...

I miss you.

We were made for each other,

Out here forever,

I know we were,

Yeah Yeah!

All I ever wanted was for you to know,

Everything I do I give my heart and soul,

I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me...
When you're gone,

The pieces of my heart are missing you!

When you're gone,

The face I came to know is missing too!

When you're gone,

The words I need to hear will always get me through the day...

And make it OK...

I miss you!

Hm.. ok, ok.. u can say that i'm minah jiwang karat.. but i dun care cos i do really love this song.. meaningful isn't it? =(^_^)=

my appreciation

You raise me up,

so I can stand on mountains;

You raise me up,

to walk on stormy seas;

I am strong,

when I am on your shoulders;

You raise me up...

To more than I can be.

*this post is just an acknowledgement. dun bother to read it. it is very full of emotions, haha*

it has been a long silence since i last wrote here. been very busy with stuffs (Music Night), very tired physically n most importantly, emotionally. to those who knew what happened, thanks for supporting me, direct or indirectly. esp my dear housemate, cik Azi, n other best friends - ifa, nabia, fiza, ali, muhshin, zaim.. sy syg korg! sorry kalo sy buat kalian risau n menyusahkan kalian..

my posting mates, batchmates c207, thanx very much. no words can describe my appreciation but really i owe u guys. (psycho-phido group: u guys really rock!)

to org2 yg jauh di mata, dekat di hati (ewah..);
-cik Yuni di Tasmania, thanx for calling me n gave me strength. syg kamu jugak! ko pon b strong ok!
-en. Shazwan di Bangi, thanx for listening my 'curhat' (i learnt this word from Dura; means curahan hati di Indonesia) tho u r not part of the event, kena tempias jugak. sorry ye..

x lupa jugak, Mr. Kasemsuk... terima kasih atas ur support dari Thailand. sorry, i made u worry.. but yeah, i did it!

really, this event made me realize who is friend, who is not really friend, who i can rely on, who is not. best quote from shazwan: life is try and error. yeah, it is really true. sometimes we have to learn from pain n sorrow, n life is not a bed of roses.. hmm.. i need to learn more about life.. haihh..

p/s: these r dedications from
Azi: ayat 2:286
Yuni: ayat 3:139
to sesape yg rasa agak depressed or down, bukak la ayat2 ni, insyaAllah.. lega sikit la hati tu :)